My whole life I have loved going to concerts. It gave me a rush to be apart of the crowd and have the music so loud that you can feel it from the inside out. I love the music, I love the entire thing. I wanted to take Laura to a show at Saltaire some time too. I used to love the concerts there. Well, we got the opportunity last Friday. My friends Lisa and Amanda had won tickets to the Killswitch Engage concert from 94.9 and had planned to go. I had told them if I could afford to go I would buy us tix to go with them. Well, I never had the money so I just told them how great the show would be and that they would like the band.
Last minute they decided that they weren’t really interested in going and offered us the tickets!! So we ran to get them after work and headed to the concert. 
Just to give you an idea of how much I wasn’t thinking….I was wearing a white button up shirt and an Old Navy pull over that made me look like some out of place mom at a metal show. I was so excited to just be that crazy teenager and get right in the middle of the crowd, but my GOD I was so hot!! I didn’t used to care if I stashed my sweaters or other things all over at that place, and now I won’t even take it off for fear I might lose it or ruin it.
In a way my age doesn’t really matter it’s just that I have changed. I don’t care if everyone thinks I’m a hard ass. I don’t care if I just smile when I’m being mangled by the crowd, I love just being there….feeling that same rush, having more of everyone elses sweat on me than my own and going home with my ears ringing. I love it! I don’t know why. Maybe I’m crazy and I don’t want to ever grow up. Maybe I want to be that punk kid that I never could be before. Maybe it’s just something I enjoy and I shouldn’t read into it anymore.
